Life as we Know it

Lately, I've been very overwhelmed.  Getting up to go to work is hard, working is hard, being a mom is hard, cooking can be hard, managing schedules is hard, LIFE...it's just hard.  I've gotten to a point in life that being overwhelmed and anxious has taken a drastic extent on my family.  At times I am debilitated, I CANNOT function.  There have been times that I can not leave my house and when I am out, I just want to go back home, but when I'm home there is cooking, cleaning, helping with homework, organizing, etc...it's been a never-ending cycle of feeling overwhelmed.  My husband tries, but he has a busy schedule too.  I'm not sure what a good balance is.  Mr. H and I talk about when he is done with school it will be better, when he finds a better job it will be better, when [fill in the blank] it will be better.  I don't want to wait for things to be better.  I need to see the BETTER in my everyday life.  I need to be ok with a house that is not sparkly clean 24-7.  I need to love life as we know it.  

This is what our living room looked like a couple days ago.  Clean clothes on the couch that ET has knocked down to the floor.  Toys scattered through the room.  KK comfortably watching a movie in his underwear.  School papers on the couch because we were either getting ready to go through homework or we just finished it and KK hasn't put it away.  Blankets all over the place because ET LOVES to wrap himself up with EVERY SINGLE blanket he can find.  ET is happily playing with only a diaper on.  I have a floor that only gets vacuumed once a week.  This is my life, no filters, nothing to be embarrassed about, no reason to make people think that I have it all together because I don't.  I love my family and play with my kids.  I make sure my family has food to eat and clean the dishes when I can.  I am learning to adjust my expectations, which is hard for me to do.  I am a "work in progress" and hope to find that peace within myself so that I can be a better wife, mother, and daughter of God.  I am eager to see where this journey takes me.  

My Handsome Boys

It's been a while since I have made an appearance on this blog, but I would like to start getting back into it.  I love using it as a means to record family activities and the things the boys are doing.  I thought I would start with these fun pictures.  I love the expressions they have and how much fun they have with each other.  KK was meant to be a big brother.  Look at ET's expression when he looks at his big brother.  I'm so happy to have my family and that I am their mom

KK's Special Day

Today was such a special day for our family.  KK chose to be baptized into The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.  As a family, we have been planning this day for a couple weeks now.  It was a full family effort, thankfully my parents helped with the food (meat and cheese tray, rolls, veggies, and cupcakes).  I couldn't have done it without them, I think just having them there as a support and knowing if I needed more help they would be there helped to relieve some of the potential stress.  

KK brought pictures from home that he wanted to display.  This was the table leading into the chapel where the program was to take place.

These are the gifts that KK gave out as a thank you for coming to the baptism.  This is where I found the printable.   

Here is my handsome ET!  Drinking yogurt...man, he LOVES those things!  

KK received this awesome baptism towel from his Aunt JM.  She was able to use her new sewing machine to embroider his name, date, and the CTR symbol on it.  This was very thoughtful and a very awesome idea!  KK LOVES it!

So here is the infamous before baptism picture, when I took this picture I told them that they looked awkward, so....

 ...I told them they should at least look like they like each other!

 I REALLY LOVE this boy and am so very proud of him.  I can't believe how fast these 8 years have gone!  BTW, the necklace I am wearing is one that KK had made for me!

 I love LOVE my family!  I am so happy to have all of them in my life.  I am very blessed!

 I am so overcome with emotion.  When KK walked into the water font and being placed in the water I started crying a bit.  This was a huge step for him!  He is just growing up way too fast!  I am grateful for the people who came to support him and our family.  We are very blessed to have such a huge church family who loves us!